Recently, I was introduced to a woman with the words, “You had a miracle and so did she.” These words resonated with me and I later decided they were very true. First, I will tell Robin’s (not her real name) story then I will explain why I have had a miracle.
Robin is quite young, maybe in her 30’s, and beautiful. She is married and has young children. At some point she began having shoulder pain. Upon investigation it was found that she had extensive cancer spread through her body. It was thought at first to be pancreatic cancer–then finally cancer of unknown origin. In spite of medical treatment, the disease progressed and finally her family was told she would die within hours. Her mother was in her hospital room praying. She then climbed into the hospital bed to be close to Robin as she left this life. After a while the sytems monitors started to sound much different. Robin’s mother called in a nurse. Robin had suddenly and amazingly stabilized.
She still went through chemo and is now at the status “no evidence of disease”. However, Robin is not taking her health for granted. She is looking at ways to support and strengthen her body, and is considering doing the Gerson program. That means in many ways she is where I am.
However, as far as I know, there is still evidence of cancer with me. The CT scans actually increase your chances of cancer so my oncologist is severely limiting them which makes total sense to me. He said, “If we look hard enough we will find something. Go by how you feel. “ This was an encouragment actually. I took it as meaning this–if we look hard enough at anyone (even “healthy people”), we will find something.
So now for my new thinking on miracles. In my mind previously, if I had no evidence that the disease was gone, then I had no miracle. However, today I feel great. I have no pain and I have energy. I am almost 4 years past my first cancer, diagnosis with a second breast cancer tumor, and a blood cancer in the interim. Even if technically I still have the diagnosis of follicular lymphoma, God has given me a miracle.
When Jesus healed in biblical times, he never repeated the steps to healing in the same way. I view it that way for my miracle and Robin’s. With a superficial look, maybe we are not technically the recipients of text book miracles. But to feel good and not oppressed by cancer is a miracle. Someday, I also hope to have evidence of being completely healed. But maybe that would lead me back into mediocre nutrition and care of my body. We are fearfully and wonderfully made and our bodies deserve to be treated as the awesome creations that they are.