2009 is gone. My body has undergone 10 surgeries in the last 3 years. Only one more procedure is left to finish the breast cancer saga–the second coat on the nipple tattoos. So I am officially writing the end of this old cancer adventure with a summary of what I have learned.
Here is the short list. Most have been mentioned in previous blogs.
1. Jesus loves me. I mean really, really loves ME. This is now heart knowledge not just head knowledge for me.
2. It is all about Him as much as I tend to make it all about me.
3. There really is nothing to fear because God will never leave or forsake me. That does not mean that I won’t have fear, because in spite of having an awesome and mighty God, I am frail and human. However, God can help each time the fear comes.
4. The depths of my sin have been shown to me in doses that I could handle. It has appalled me. It has also shown me that there is no sin in humankind with which I cannot identify. This was not previously true. I tended towards some self righteousness.
5. In all of our suffering, God has great gifts for us. We have to have our eyes and ears opened to recognize these gifts. We will be better people for our suffering if we remain thankful and not embittered.
6. One of the greatest gifts of this adventure is not caring so much what other people think–realizing the truth of your mortality gives a byproduct of less people pleasing.
7. Seeking holiness still is a huge battle. This adventure did not abate my tendency towards my same old patterns of sin. My weaknesses will apparently always be my weaknesses.